And as I was browsing through my photo album in my phone, I chanced upon the last photo I took with someone close to my heart. I don't know how to deal with it but tears. I miss you so much I wished you never had to go.
Are you lonely where you are? Are you happy? Are you looking down on us? Can you feel us missing you?
It scares me that we are getting older with each moment. I don't think my heart can handle anymore losses.
To you: I'm sorry that all I could do was to sit by your side and hold your hand by the death bed and hope you would not be afraid. I'm sorry that the only kiss and hug I can remember giving you was the only time you laid on the bed breathless. I'm sorry that I didn't have the chance to call you for the last time. I hope you received the the handwritten letter I wrote to you I placed in the coffin.
To you: I'm sorry for not being there. For always standing on the other side. I'm sorry for all that has happened but I just want you to know that I love you regardless and for everything you've given. I just hope you will be healthy and genuinely happy. Let it go.
To you: It saddens me to see you the way you are now. And makes me more upset when I can't do anything about it. I'm sorry I can't be there to accompany you as much as I would like to. I wished I knew you better. I know you love us very much and I hope you know it's likewise.
To you: I'm sorry I couldn't protect you from the fucked. I'm sorry I couldn't take the pain, sadness, worries and trauma you went through for us. I'm sorry you still have to work us for us. I'm sorry that I'm selfish sometimes but I promise to give my best. Because you're really the bestest anyone can have. Hands down. In a heartbeat, I've give anything just to see you happy. Love you the most.
In every lifetime, I want all of you again.
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