A New Life

Just May, I decided to give myself a new challenge. For the past few years, I have been flying around the world. During my offdays, I find myself going out to enjoy the pleasures of life - Shopping and enjoying good food. In the first year, I would be excited to visit countries for the first time, soaking in all the world has to offer. Time past so fast and four years have passed. In retrospect, I still enjoy everytime I set foot into a foreign land. There's just so much to uncover in a city. But just recently, I find myself not doing anything productive with my life. Not learning anything, not using my brain for anything intellectual. I have become so accustomed to living the fun and high life. Not that it was bad but I felt I had to do something for myself. A person my future self would thank me for. Especially with the notion that nothing lasts forever.

I have always loved writing. I love how a person can express him/herself through words. And I love how words, set me free. So here I am at the beginning of something new. Juggling my flying life with a new part time status. Although it just started, but the struggle is r e a l. It is so hard having to sacrifice beloved flights in exchange for time. So goddamn hard. I actually questioned myself if it was worth it the first time I gave away a long flight. I guess growing up and transitioning into adulthood steers you to make decisions sometimes painful, in a gamble for a better life in the future. I knew it was gonner be tough but I didn't expect it to be of such magnitude. I stay motivated knowing that people in my situation has overcomed the odds and done it before. I take each day at a time. I really do not dare to look forward. I foresee days I will feel crushed, not knowing whut to do. But I know I'll press on till the end. I have to.

Oh yes I just turned 25. Omfg. Whutever happened to always being considered as the youngest in the airlines/set of crew. It's kinda scary and exciting at the same time knowing that in a few years, I would be married (Ok if Wenny proposes), having babies (If previous point happens), have a house of my own (On da way) and have a family of my own to take care. I just pray that everything will come together at the right time.

On a different note, I'm off for a vacay next month. Gotta book the accomodation and plan the itinerary as soon. I really cannot wait to visit the city B!

Till the next entry, be kind to one another! xx